My First Grown Up Date

Ok so I’ve been on dates before, but it’s either a friend or I’ve already met the person a few times and then we go out and so on.

Last night I had my first date where I hadn’t met the guy and we’d only been speaking for a couple of days… It was a proper “pick you up at 8” style date.


I actually drank a whole bottle of prosecco beforehand because I physically could not cope with the stress.

I had a melt down about what to wear and how to do my hair and I am NOT girly in the slightest.

I kept panicking about the greeting, do I shake his hand? Hug him? What if he goes for a kiss on the cheek and I miss and kiss his eyeball?? What if I fall over? What if I dribble my drink? All of these are worrying possibilities and all of these HAVE HAPPENED TO ME BEFORE.

Well anyway I got slightly pissed and headed off on the date and well… 


Polite, funny, no break in conversation it flowed, I could be myself, there was a bit of sick humour which is like 30% of my normal humour so that was greeeat

Everything went so well until I accidentally elbowed the guy sitting behind me in the head causing him to fall forwards into his table and spill all their drinks… Oops.

I immediately thought “oh great that’s me done” but then awkward angels came to save the day.

During our conversation about swear words, the WHOLE PUB went quiet as he said the sentence

“I like a bit of c*ck, sometimes c*nt”

Oh the looks he got. OH IT MADE MY DAY. We both decided to move on to another pub where we proceeded to get drunk to end the date nicely.

And I was so grown up I didn’t even sleep with him – HAZAH!



Preelings are what I like to call the stage where they aren’t “nothing” but they aren’t “something”

It’s like your last port of call before the ship docks up at feelingstone in the country of lovesuania. And you’re at the point where you need to either get off the ship and be a tourist in the preelings zone, go ahead and carry on to feelingstone or get that captain to turn the FECK around and go back singlesville.

So now I’ve explained that here’s my pickle, I’ve got PREELINGS for –

Wait for it –


Erm I talk to him not even that frequently but every time I get a text from him I smile and giggle like a typical schoolgirl from the O.C or One Tree Hill. 




I don’t react like that to other guys I’m talking to some of which I’ve ACTUALLY met.

Meesa veeeeeeery bothered to have preelings again Ani


That’s all for now.

Getting ahead of yourself on Tinder…

Ok so I think it’s VERY CLEAR from my last post that I use tinder. Now when I first started using this app my breakup was still pretty raw; self confidence was at an all time low and I felt a bit lost in terms of having that “person” to talk to.

Tinder could not have been better for me, in all honesty I owe how well I’ve coped with this split to tinder (and one mystery man I had a wild night with… But more on that later kids)

Getting matches from good looking guys, being asked to go for drinks, being able to just be my geeky weird yet surprisingly smooth self and guys loving it was great at first.. Now my only issue is what do I do with all these guys? 

Note: I do not mean this in a “look at me I’m so popular” way – I shall explain.

I’m chatting to about 5 or 6 guys at the moment consistently and have been now for about 2 weeks. They’re all nice, they all bring something different to the table, they all want to/have already taken me out for some drinks and I’m having fun but now it’s like OH SNAP WHO DO I PICK?

Don’t get me wrong I absolutely do not want a boyfriend AT ALL but I feel extremely odd talking so deeply, meeting up with, and in one case yes I’ve slept with one guy. How long can you keep that up for? Are they talking to as many girls? Will they think badly of me if they found out? AM I JUST OVERTHINKING THIS?

Seriously SOMEONE HELP. I’m far too new to this crap. 

I shall update later in the week as I am going for drinks with two of the six guys… Oops. Maybe I should casually bring this up by asking how well they are doing on tinder? Gosh. Why is dating so hard?

I just want someone to eat pizza, get drunk, watch Harry Potter and engage in some adult cuddling with. SIGH.